Everything reminds me of my dad these days....
Everything.
I can look at a flower and remember how he loved to work in his yard and how he planted thousands of flowers in his lifetime. The care he had for them, and the time he spent pruning...
I look at dishes sitting in the sink and I can hear him "Isn't it just as easy to set this here plate in the dishwasher as it is to set it in the sink?" A saying I heard more times than I'd like to admit growing up....
I see a coke can and think of his great dislike of anything diet....
I hear myself in conversations saying things like "my dad loved those" or "my dad used to do this or that"...it doesn't matter what we're talking about or what I'm looking at...I see him. I hear him. My mind is constantly trying to sort things out...to learn how to let go. Like my quote over there on my sidebar...."Change is never easy, you fight to hold on, you fight to let go". I can say that is the truth.
This is the first time I've had to deal with this. It's something that I'm learning on a day to day basis. I want to be happy for him and I wouldn't bring him back to this evil world for anything. But on the other hand, I want him back.
As I was going through pictures on my camera, I came across some silly pictures of Dawson playing "Pretty, Pretty Princess". We don't have the game, so don't worry. I know what (some of) you are thinking ;o)
He could NOT go for a girl....even with all this garb on
It took but a moment for my mind to be flooded with a very distant memory. Like I said....everything reminds me of him...
While on one of our many houseboat trips, Megan thought it would be fun to play dress up. Apparently, all of us girls were too busy floatin' or being drug by Sea Doo's, so Papa volunteered. What a nice volunteer. And a purdy one too.
I guess he wasn't the only one to let go of all pride...
Uncle Keifer played dress up too.
He's a purdy one too. The purdiest of them all.
2 comments:
Hi Amber,
I just wanted to tell you, again, how sweet it is to me that you do this blog. It's so neat to catch up with you, with what's been on your mind, and what you're going through.
I can so relate to your sentiments. I think it's amazing how, sometimes, we find out how much we really learned from someone after they're gone. I guess, if we thought about that more, it might be easier to take in, and appreciate, what we have around us today.
Love you!
I've lost people I love to worse than death, but it doesn't seem like it can be compared to someone this close. The Pretty Princess pictures are great, and isn't Meg such a cutie?
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